Sunday, January 20, 2008

Sweatshirt, why do you DO THIS TO ME?!?!

Let's rewind a little, first. Over the past summer I went to a christian camp. It was an amazing camp by the way, It's changed my life.
But while I was there, we had a giant hug line...and there was this guy in it.... really handsome. But I never got to talk with him and I got all bummed out.
~Fast forward to about...three weeks play practice...It took me a while to actually recognize that it was him...
Me: Hey! Nice sweatshirt! When did you go to that camp?
Him: Oh! Same to you! (yeah, we both wore our sweatshirts from camp on the same day) I just went this summer! What about you?
Me: Same here! Hey... I think I met you....
Him: In the hug line?
Me: Yeah!
So, every play practice, we get to talk, learn more about each other and all that stuff. But I kinda have some jealousy issues. I know I'm not the only one in the play that likes him. And I'm sure he's seriously dedicated to being a christian, so I actually don't know if he'd date. Him being a christian only makes me like him more... But if he's not one to date, why should I like him? So here I am, trying to convince myself: "He won't want to date! He's setting an example for me! I shouldn't want to date him! I should be dedicated to God! Not some guy that lives about 30 miles away from me! *thuds head on desk*GAH!!!" But I just can't stop thinking about him! His eyes, his hair, how dedicated he is to God... He's probably the youngest person I've seen that is as dedicated as he is... Even that look he gets when he's not paying attention and he just stares off into space gets me! When I close my eyes, I see him. When I try to read my bible, I think of him and how dedicated he is. When I listen to the christian station on the radio, I think of him. When I think about the play, I think of him. When I think about.... and the list goes on and on. WHY?!?! Why am I doing this to myself! I know I should just stay friends with him, but being the girl that I am makes me want to date him!!! And my mother knowing about him doesn't make it any better... he just recently found me and added me on a popular chatting site and my mom can be kinda nosey...
e-mail: "man" wants to add you!
mom: *pops in* oOo! Who's "man"?
me: I met him at camp. He's also in the same play I'm in
mom: He's kinda cute! Do you like him?
me: He's a good friend.
mom: Uh-huh... So when do I get to meet him? When is going to take you to dinner? Am I invited to the wedding?
me: MOM! We're just friends! I don't intend on dating him! *I blush*
mom: ooooo! Someone has a little crush!
So yeah, my mother isn't helping me at all... GAH! I wish I knew what to do to get him off of my mind!!!! >.<

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